Comparing myself to myself

Only awoke a while ago and I've already had a day.
Meditated early to get out of my thoughts.Checked in with my
spiritual mentor[see being open]Had a cry.Now it's time to get productive.
Planning hats and shirts,just filling in for NY.
In the past I've looked around and compared my insides to others masks.That doesn't work.
We all put on our best faces for each other or so we think.When i realize that I'm doing good things for myself and I know the hell I've lived in and gone through and relived {through my own hand}.One day or a series of days you just get tired of doing the same old shit.So you bite the bullet actually feel the feelings you've been avoiding.Then I slowly changed the behavior.Not the thoughts first the behavior first{that changed my thinking}RADICAL!
So these days I compare myself to myself and realize that I'm living a miracle.
There are still challenges but I'm up to em.

divine love

Went to a group meditation last night.
Was very profound for me.I've been on this journey for a long time.
for many years I've been able to love others in a sense the way divine mother loves her off spring.Last night I was able to let divine mother's love in and it was beautiful.I felt loved and cherished,I suspect being a loving being and giving so much of myself had plenty to do with it.
So the message for the day is...don't stop till the miracle happens.

paying attention

Where is my attention?
Am I trying to control something out of my control?
Am I busy with someone else's business?
Am I listening to my inner voice or do I let my thoughts rule me?
Am i so busy that I don't take time to honor myself?
Is the higher power trying to tell me something?

The challenge for me is to slow down and breathe be in the moment and do the next right thing.
Hopefully writing this today will help [I definitely need help]

I've heard it said...
A miracle is a shift in perception.