Self love

Can one blog and go back to bed.Absolutely.lol.I am fortunate in that I have the capacity to love,I am able to demonstrate it through the clothes I create through my service at the store through this blog,and many other ways.I pour forth a lot of my spirit regularly.Goddess is teaching me how to love myself in a more profound way.It's hard to accept I'd rather put others first it's what I'm used to,it stems out of an old false belief of unworthiness.That way I don't have to look at what is deficient in me.I believe it is in my best interest and spirit's best interest and the best interest of my brothers to fill the vessel and operate from that place.It's not as overwhelming as I would like to believe.Besides I have lots of help.
I would like to go on record though I have come to appreciate and understand this need to fill with self love through the act of loving and being loved by my brothers.It's been a long journey of discovery and it's not nearly half way through.Some bags are just to heavy to carry any longer.I guess I'll just let them go.Blessed be.

Light is information

What is the point of the journey?
I believe the point is to become more authentically who we actually are.
Spiritual beings having a human experience.

How do I interact with my fellows?
I invite them in,and give them a cup of coffee or a hug[etc]
My mother taught [and I knew instinctively it was very important]
Never ask a guest what they want or offer something putting them on the spot.
Just give.

What does one get from giving?
Sharing my self and sharing my stuff whether it be material or emotional
makes me part of something bigger.It banishes the lie that I'm more important
more spiritual,somehow different than my fellow.
It honors their spirit.It undoes isolation.For both or all involved.We are part of the same energy.You are my brother.It's not about me and God it's about me and you.

How do I interact with myself?
Can I accept that I'm part of this energy? Can I accept the gift of coffee or a hug from my brothers? Or am I busy thinking I'm different? Am I worthy?
How many lies and how much isolation do I need to experience to fully actualize as an authentic spiritual being?[plenty it seems]

My personal challenge has been the ability to give but the inability to receive.
Perhaps the biggest misconception of my life[thusfar]
If I hold so much love for my fellows,why am I denying them the opportunity to be more authentic? Why am uninviting them from the party?
Can I be one among many? Or is my need to be different so great that I'm damaging my spirit and in turn my brother's spirit?
If spirit holds so much love for me and I've been invited to the party,why not just go to the party?

If I hold more love for myself
and allow my brother to hug me
aren't I being more authentic?
A spiritual being having a human experience.

Fear is a lie
Isolation is a lie
Unworthiness is a lie

p.s. Meditation allows my spirit to observe
and discover my blocks to being who I actually am