Within

# I have'nt been meditating and I feel it.Been so busy with the psychical realm it's easy to get lost in the illusion that the psychical is the only reality.Time to forget this nonsense and go back inside gather strength and move forward. my tendency is to go back into fear based thoughts which don't serve me or anyone around me.Enough is enough.

clearing

# Was planning on cleaning and staying home today anyway.It's freezing outside.
Felt relieved and very clear this morning.There's a sense of ease.I've been praying and acting as if for a while and today I feel free of burdens.Wouldn't surprise me if I threw out a lot of things that are unnecessary.With the new year coming it's a good time for clearing.

Wind

It's really windy today.I always feel excited in the wind,something is leaving something new is about to emerge.I have thoughts and ideas about what should come and go,but I'm always surprised.I try to impose my will on situations but that rarely works out.I don't really have much control over anything I just have to show up and observe,be loving,patient and let go.

New attitude

Trying day yesterday,but i talked about it some and feel somewhat better.Today the plan is to get some new plants,need some new life in the apartment.There has definitely been a transformation within me.I'm wearing a rubber band around my wrist to remind me not to act in the old way,if I do I snap the band.