doing something different

I was offended tonight by a friend.I was hurt so I removed myself and took myself to the movies.Instead of making myself more upset.It was a good idea.It was an act of love toward myself.I'll get used to it

Productivity

Yesterday was a full day.I dyed lots of garments,made a gift had a friend over and went to a celebration.i'm at my best when I'm useful and productive.When I don't have enough to do I tend to find my way to my thoughts and many times they are a bit crazy for lack of a better word.I know I'm not alone in this experience,which helps.Just for today I'm going to try and stay busy not crazy busy productive busy.

Self love

Can one blog and go back to bed.Absolutely.lol.I am fortunate in that I have the capacity to love,I am able to demonstrate it through the clothes I create through my service at the store through this blog,and many other ways.I pour forth a lot of my spirit regularly.Goddess is teaching me how to love myself in a more profound way.It's hard to accept I'd rather put others first it's what I'm used to,it stems out of an old false belief of unworthiness.That way I don't have to look at what is deficient in me.I believe it is in my best interest and spirit's best interest and the best interest of my brothers to fill the vessel and operate from that place.It's not as overwhelming as I would like to believe.Besides I have lots of help.
I would like to go on record though I have come to appreciate and understand this need to fill with self love through the act of loving and being loved by my brothers.It's been a long journey of discovery and it's not nearly half way through.Some bags are just to heavy to carry any longer.I guess I'll just let them go.Blessed be.

Wind

It's really windy today.I always feel excited in the wind,something is leaving something new is about to emerge.I have thoughts and ideas about what should come and go,but I'm always surprised.I try to impose my will on situations but that rarely works out.I don't really have much control over anything I just have to show up and observe,be loving,patient and let go.

Being in it

Not sure how the day is going to unfold but I decided I'm gonna be in it.I don't know what that means exactly.I'm feeling adventurous.

Thanksgiving

What I'm most thankful for this year is the amazing transformation I've been going through.My hope is that from this year forward I'll be able to give and receive LOVE
in a way that I never even dreamed of in the past.My goal is to be able to have open house every Thanksgiving.God bless us all.

Opening

If I desire more esteem I do more estimable actions.If I want to experience love I do more loving actions.Sometimes I need to pretend I'm someone else I have to act more like a friend to myself.This little trick has worked well for me.
I put out love and patience and kindness to the best of my ability toward others on a regular basis.Spirit is trying to show me that I need to give theses gifts to myself,I'm so used to feeling and acting unworthy[on the inside]this doesn't work anymore.
I need to get off the cross,the pedestal,the stage and become a member of the chorus.
It's scary and unfamiliar,I'm up for the challenge.
Tired of swimming upstream,let go or be dragged.The most humbling part is
I'm always the last to know.