preparing

# Just getting ready for the sale........April 10th,11th. Website is pretty much done.
Gotta write something up and contact blogs. New screens coming soon for the stores and web. I take a day off a week lately gotta fill the well. Excited for the Spring ready to make money.

Ritual

# I have begun starting days with writing,both here and morning pages .Ritual works well for me. It centers me. the way i begin my day spreads out into the rest of the day. If I don't meditate or should I say "medicate" early in the day I spend the day angry and unfocused. That doesn't serve me or anyone else. i have responsibility to myself and those around me to be the most focused and kind person I can be. I try to start by going within.

morning pages

# Started the Artist's way. Have done it before.This time with a group wrote my morning pages,let's see what comes up.

Working Hard

# Been whittling away at the website challenging myself asking for help too.It's been lots of work and there's plenty more to do.Meeting up with this type of work and moving through it however is it's own reward.

Assessment

# When the economy took a turn a while ago,i sort of took an inner and outer vacation from business.
I'm glad I did . I have recently awoken from the slumber it was a lovely and much needed rest now however it's time to eat and the bear is very hungry. The feeling and the word out on the street is that 2010 is going to be good for all of us. I say yes.

hobo

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Opening

If I desire more esteem I do more estimable actions.If I want to experience love I do more loving actions.Sometimes I need to pretend I'm someone else I have to act more like a friend to myself.This little trick has worked well for me.
I put out love and patience and kindness to the best of my ability toward others on a regular basis.Spirit is trying to show me that I need to give theses gifts to myself,I'm so used to feeling and acting unworthy[on the inside]this doesn't work anymore.
I need to get off the cross,the pedestal,the stage and become a member of the chorus.
It's scary and unfamiliar,I'm up for the challenge.
Tired of swimming upstream,let go or be dragged.The most humbling part is
I'm always the last to know.

Prayer

Many years ago it was recommended to me through a spiritual community that I start praying.I didn't really know if I believed or not.
I began to pray even though I had two hurdles one was the good people of religion,who spoke love with their lips but held hatred in their hearts.The other was even if I did believe in God I didn't feel God believed in me.[I sure didn't]
Part of the process was finding a God that worked for me,that was a long slow process.
I used to write letters saying things like if you are judging me you are fired and put God on the address and Jeffrey on the return.
In hindsight I think I discovered the good in myself,others and the universe almost at about the same pace.They were interlocked.
These days I pray a good part of the day.
I awoke very early this morning from a disturbing dream.It was based in a resentment I have. It's been recommended that I pray for this person for a month everyday,that they get everything that I would like.In the past I've had to be quite desperate to do this.The questions I ask myself are; Do I want to live in anger? Am I willing to let go? Would I rather be happy or would I rather be right?
I put it on my calendar 30 days.
The Higher Power,Higher Self sent me this dream to remind me what my hurdles were
holding hatred in my heart hurts me and my brothers.God believes in the light in my heart.