sleepless

@The full moons affect me every month,so it's not surprising I'm up at 6.Have to finish the laundry anyway.Looking forward to inviting spirit in tonight to help me
let go of old patterns.Wishing all of us happiness,health,prosperity and peace of mind.
HAPPY NEW YEAR

inHarmony astrology: lunar eclipse in cancer- 12/31/09 at 11:13am PST

inHarmony astrology: lunar eclipse in cancer- 12/31/09 at 11:13am PST

Full Moon Eclipse

Full Moon Eclipse

Don't drop the ball

#Still more clearing to do,not the time to rest on my laurels.I have to move forward
in spite of laziness and or fear.Making room for something new in the coming months,years.

clearing

# Was planning on cleaning and staying home today anyway.It's freezing outside.
Felt relieved and very clear this morning.There's a sense of ease.I've been praying and acting as if for a while and today I feel free of burdens.Wouldn't surprise me if I threw out a lot of things that are unnecessary.With the new year coming it's a good time for clearing.

commitment

@"Throw your heart over the fence and the rest will follow."
I'm committed to being successful in business. I'm committed to working for
my own highest good ,and for the highest good of those around me. I have a plan and I'm moving forward with it.

choices

#"Choose well,your choice is brief,and yet endless"-Goethe
That's the difference between coffee or tea at the diner.LOL
What am I creating today? Who am I inviting to share with me?
Am I honoring my spirit? What do I want the future to look like?
All actions have results. Today I'm aware of what I choose.

Community

#Awoke this morning to a phone call from a friend having a hard time.My job is to listen.That's how we build each other up,no one can carry the burden alone.We help
one another and build something greater than all the parts.

Assessment

#The end of the year is time for assessment.What works what doesn't.seems there's lots I'd like to change.It happens slowly and with lots of effort and help.Meditation has really helped me see in a different light.The only constants I'd like to keep I will.Which is basically a spiritual practice the rest is up for consideration.

Change

#Ready for my life to look different.Ready to rely on God more.Ready to use my talents and abilities in a deeper more meaningful more prosperous way.Ready to think and act bigger than I have been.

Observation

#It's easy to see how others disrespect and destroy themselves,but it's not so easy to see my own destructive behavior.At the deli this morning people couldn't get enough processed food all of them were very obese.The only reason I went down upon awakening was to buy cigarettes.I'd like to quit by New Year's.If I write it here I'm going on record.If I think of it as a gift and not a punishment I have a shot.

Back to work

#Wasn't able to be in the apartment because of the lack of heat.It's back up and so am I.Who knows what fabulousness I'll be able to create today.Was nice having a little time off but ready to start creating again.Great sleeping in my own bed for the first time in a few days also.

Solstice

#i Finally have heat again!At solstice we give up and let go bury in the Earth what
no longer serves us or those about us.
Last night I gave her smoking,victimhood,scarcity,possessiveness,codependancy,unworthiness,expectations of others.
These actions and attributes are cleaned and transmuted in the Earth to be reconfigured and reborn come Spring.It's been a year of learning and growing and I'm grateful.

hobo

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Night out

My friend suggested I stay over being that I have no heat.I did.It's important to let myself be loved by others,and it's equally important to ask for and accept help.
I run in a large and complicated social circle,it's easy to put the focus on others,but ultimately best if I mind my own business not get involved in making their business mine.I'm most serene that way and I desire peace of mind.

Cold

# called 311 yesterday,haven't had heat for 5 days.
Wasn't terrible till now,it's become pretty unbearable.
I feel like a character in a Malamud book.It's one thing to leave the house in the Summer all day,and quite another to have to leave all day in the Winter.
I hope this gets resolved soon.I'm more than a little stressed.

Zone

# I get to dye today.Out of all the actions I get to take for my business none give me greater freedom or joy than the dyeing.
Went to a group meditation last night.The themes were UNITY,PURE LOVE and GRATITUDE.
We are eternal beings,as pieces of the greater whole.We are all truly brothers the more loving and patient I am with you the more loving and patient I am with me.Can we all let go of the illusion that we are separate from each other.

Responsibility

# Off to Brooklyn,getting women's samples to add to the website.It's almost officially Winter and I'm moving slowly.I am moving though,Third day without heat which in a weird way helps me move.

Dance

It's good for my soul to dance.Forget about what's in my head.Laugh and be joyous.
It's a renewal.

SALE!!!

Today and tomorrow
My place
$10 tee shirts and free donuts
696 10th ave
noon till 6

Open

Ready today for whatever spirit has in mind. Not making plans in my head just taking it as it comes.

Getting ready

No more sewing or screening,time to clean.Excited about the sale

Letting go

Yesterday was full of surprises.Mostly pleasant.When i let go of the illusion that I know best or that I'm in control of anything it all seems to work out.It's all gonna be okay.Let the blessings in.

Habit

I blog when I awaken. How can I take better care of myself today? and form a new habit.

One thing at a time

Feeling pretty calm.It's easy to get overwhelmed.Today I'll concentrate on being in my body and doing one thing at a time.I am the master of my mind,not vice versa.

Building Character

It's cold it's Sunday.I don't want to .My responsibilities will not disappear magically no matter how hard I close my eyes.Gotta do things I don't want to do.
I'll mix in some pleasantries and do em anyway.Now that I wrote it I gotta do it.
At the end of the day I'll have something to show for it.Turn off my thoughts for a while.

Winter

Yesterday everyone said it would snow,but I was living in my own reality.
I awoke early,it's gonna snow.Seems I've been living in a different place than other people lately,just a series of events.That's why I need to check things out with other people to bring me back from thinking I always know the answers.I need to listen more.

Counting my blessings

Such a funny expression,as if there were a limited number of blessings.
There are quite a few people in my life that I can tell anything to.Just completely let go.The only way to learn trust in my experience is to do just that..trust and let go.That's how I am breaking and have broken through the illusion that I or any of us are alone here.We are all together.

Peace

I pray for peace today for myself for the world and for all I come in contact with.
Sometimes I don't get the big picture.Why we don't get along,why one hurts another etc. whether it be individually or a group.Today I just wish peace on all of us.

Full Moon Gemini

This is a good time to attract those of like mind.Good to be open to new people
with common interests and goals,that's what I'll manifest tonight.I have a good feeling about my future and the future of my business.

Today

Didn't sleep much,but I'm ready for the day anyhow.Felt like I was punched in the stomach yesterday.Today is a new day and I need to move on and deal with today.
I'm meeting a photographer and an intern today.Everything is a group effort I don't live in a bubble.My life is reciprocal I give and receive.
Something is different about me years ago when I had a feeling I would be lost in it and let it rule my life.Today I am able to have the feeling feel it in a more complete way,and get on with my duties and responsibilities.Not sure how and why that has changed but it has and I'm grateful.I choose not to fan the flames of hurt feelings it doesn't serve my highest good.